Yay for Mistakes! Part 6 | Mistaking Our Worth

 

My red-haired friend from Grad school calls me. The one who is a writing sister and who encouraged me to teach English, like she did.  

She had just had her 60th birthday.

“Why?” she asks, “Do I still feel like I am still a little kid who hasn’t yet figured out life or even gotten her life together?”

I am not sure what to say. This is my friend who when we chat we always laugh more than be serious. We even end up laughing about serious things. Like her husband divorcing her for a younger woman, or me lying in bed for months with a broken back. Not because these things were funny, but because it relieved our stress and  the hardship of life. And because for a moment we glimpse hope and the end of the thing.

I can only imagine a time when my children are grown and retirement is in the not too distant future.

 “I always imagined that by this age I would quit making mistakes and be wiser. That I would have arrived and be good enough.”

I try to comfort her. “We never fully arrive,” I tell her, “Well not until we leave this life. Or what would we have to look forward to? Why would we need to keep growing? Keep living and learning?”

“And you are good enough,” I tell her. “Perfectly good enough. Even now with all your imperfections.”

I am not sure if it comforted her, but by the time we got off the phone my checks were hurting from laughing so much.

Can you relate?

Are there days you think you are not good enough. Haven’t arrived enough. Are still making too many mistakes and ruining things? Are spinning your wheels and are never going to get where you want to arrive?”

I do.

I imagine we all do.

Because we have this little voice in our heads keeping track of our progress. Keeping track when we make a mistake. Letting us know when we fall behind of the expectations we have for our self.

We have an accuser that likes to turn a big thing into an elephant. And a little thing into a out of control Ferris-Wheel.

It starts young. Us wondering if we are good enough.

It can pop up at different times, but I notice it pops its ugly head up especially after I have made a mistake. Done something silly, something not wise, something that will now slow me down. Maybe something that will make me look foolish in the eyes of someone. A mistake others may get angry over. A mistake I am angry over.

Years after my red-haired friend calls, my one digit son is verbally beating himself up for some mistake. “Stop.” I tell him, “beating yourself up and doubting yourself won’t change the past.”

“Why can’t I be good enough?” he asks.

And I know what he is asking. Why can’t I do everything right? Why can’t I be good enough to not screw up? To not make mistakes?

But none of us can join that category in this life. We are all crazy, complicated, and wonderful humans who make mistakes and learn and grow. That is called life.

None of us has it all together, no matter our age.

I pull him on my lap. “You may not feel good enough, but you are. You are perfectly good enough just the way you are.”

Do you believe that? That you are perfectly good enough the way you are? Good enough sometimes being a code word for ‘loveable.’

Let me ask you this. When you pet is jumping up and annoyingly excited, do you still love him?

When your child with your eyes does something you dislike, would you say they were not good enough?

When your mate forgets to call and say he will be late, are you ready to throw in the towel and declare he is not good enough?

No. Of course not. We don’t declare our loved ones not good enough based upon their actions. We love others flaws and all, and they love us back, flaws and all.

There were times when my little children were misbehaving and I needed to discipline them and I would look at them and they would be so darn cute and precious, my heart would about melt and cause me not to blubber with joy and love for them.

Just because they were doing something they were not supposed to do did not make them good enough in my eyes and heart.

They may have felt not good enough, but they still were.

Words are important to my son. So after that day I tried to tell him at off times of the day, when he was doing good or had just made a mistake or was feeling down, that he was my perfectly good enough son.

We need to tell ourselves the same thing when we feel the opposite.

I am perfectly good enough.

Did you know that God thinks we are perfectly good enough. Right now. He will love you no matter what. There is nothing I can do to make him love me more or love me less.

If we can love our best friends, children, mates, and others when they are both good and bad, making wise choices and making mistakes, our God is capable of so much more. He sees us as good enough because we are his. Just like we see our children differently than other kids all because they are ours and we are vested in them. Concerned about them. Understand them. They are bone of our sweat.

Quit beating yourself up. Quit doubting you are good enough. Because you are. 

Consign the accusing voice to the time out corner. Because

We are good enough, because our worth does not come from our actions or what we say and do. 

We are good enough because He says we are good enough.

Our job is to believe him.

Join the Discussion: Why do you think we mistake our worth?

Earlier posts in this series:
Yay for Mistakes! Part 1; What Do You Do?
Yay for Mistakes! Part 2; How to Respond to Mistakes
Yay for Mistakes! Part 3; Responding to Our Children’s Mistakes
Yay for Mistakes! Part 4: How to Let Our Children Make Mistakes and Fail
Yay for Mistakes! Part 5; Quieting a Myth of Mistakes

Accompanying this series, Life as it Comes, a story podcast, takes a humorous look at making mistakes in episode 31, “Have You Pulled a Theresa?” and episode 33, True Green and Garage Chaos.


Linking up at Jennifer Dukes Lee (#tellhisstory); and Holley Gerth (#coffeeforyourheart).  A Wise Woman Builds her Home, Pat and Candy, Messy Marriage, and Blogger’s Pit Stop.

10 thoughts on “Yay for Mistakes! Part 6 | Mistaking Our Worth

  1. This author has a way of stating things that brings tears to my eyes. I think focusing on mistakes allows Satan a foothold in our lives. 1). Believe that I am flawed 2) believe that therefore God does not love me 3) if He does not love me therefore I am on my own and need to watch out for me 4) God does not care what I do 5) I can do what I want and how I want 6). What I want and need trumps all else 7) I am self centered and selfish 8) Satan wins

    Fortunately for all of us, this is not true. Love this writer and want her to keep on going. She will reach many people.

    • So right you are, Colleen. Satan can use our mistakes to lead us down a path of thinking we are no good and unloved by others and even ultimately by God. So thankful that this reality is not true. Love your thoughts.

  2. Oh, this topic has been all around me this week…and it’s only Tuesday! Great encouragement. I’m grateful God has relieved us of the burden of getting it all together. Our job is to receive grace and His righteousness–woohoo! You can find me at gingerharrington.com. I’m linking with you today:)

  3. I love this series!
    I have learned that humans 2 largest, deepest fears are: 1. Not being loved. and 2. Not being enough. These are also the 2 biggest lies that Satan likes to tell us!
    Thank you Theresa for this series!

    • I agree. I was just thinking today about how our society likes to criticize and find fault with people, things, and just about everything, and how we adopt this attitude in our own lives. How much better it would be if we were encouraging each other and reminding our self and others of our worth in Him.

  4. Wisdom doesn’t come from age. I know a college girl blogger who so insightful. I might could have done it, but I grew up with the attacks of feear and was taught a lot of wrong ideas about God. Failing to confess our righteousness in Him, lets the devil sneak back. I would tell the red haired friend to ask God for wisdom, that we are worth many sparrows and if you can laugh through all the things that have happened to you He is doing the good work and will complete it. The devil hasn’t took your joy.

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