I’m a fixer.
I’m a doer.
Perhaps you are too.
I see the bed unmade and I make it.
The toilet is running. I reach in, push the flapper down, and stop the waste of running water (yes, I have even been known to do this in public bathrooms! I know!).
I see someone next to me and their shirt tag is waving their size and brand, and without thinking I reach over and tuck it back in.
A child looks lost and is frantically looking about for a familiar face, I stop and talk to them. Make sure they are alright.
And if someone looks unhappy, my first instinct is to go make them happy.
I know that sounds silly. Make someone happy. Because we can’t make someone happy. They have to decide they want to be happy, but still I try.
And often I can cheer them up. Make them giggle. Get them to smile.
Which I consider success.
Do you have my problem?
See the problem is that somewhere in my life, and yes it probably stems back to my family of origin, I decided (or thought) I was responsible for the people around me being happy. Emotionally stable. In a good mood. What ever you want to call it.
Maybe it was because being in a “good” mood and being happy was the main emotion we were allowed, or were supposed to exhibit growing up.
I am sure having a teen friend who was highly insecure didn’t help. She would come over to our house for youth groups and at the last minute decide she could not attend. She would recite reason after reason why she could not attend, and my sister and I would deny and topple each reason. Then my sister would get tired of her nonsense and leave her to me. 20 or 30 minutes later I would finally talk her into attending. And then the next week, it would happen again.
So early on I became a fixer of others.
Eventually I had children. And while they were young I was responsible for doing practically everything for them. And that meant helping them learn to control their emotions. Divert their tantrums. Get them to smile on cue for photos.
It didn’t take much to change their moods when they were young.
My son is now a teenager, and he can be unhappy. My husband can have a hard day at work and come home grumpy. My friend loses her baby. My neighbor is moving. All these people are a little unhappy. Grieving or processing their emotions.
My natural instinct is to jump up and sing and dance and try to make them happy.
Only it is not my job.
And it is not always what they need. Or want.
I have been hopping around trying to make people happy for so many years, diverting tantrums, smiling and making faces until the kids smile, trying to cheer up the sad hearted, that I think I am responsible for making everyone around me happy.
But I am not.
And neither are you.
We are all responsible for our own feelings.
Are emotions good or bad?
Here is one thing I am unlearning from my youth. Emotions are NOT divided into 2 categories. Good emotions and bad emotions.
No. All emotions are necessary. Yes, we are more comfortable with some emotions, like happiness, and less comfortable with other emotions, like sorrow.
The emotions themselves ae not good or bad, desirable or undesirable, it is how we process or deal with our emotions that can healthy or unhealthy and cause problems for others.
Pain is not a bad emotion. But if we drink, shop, or retreat from life to mask our emotional pain, then we can get in trouble and cause more problems.
Happiness is not a bad emotion. But if we pretend we are happy when we are not, then that can get us in trouble and cause more problems.
We can’t always fix them, and that is alright.
My daughter and I got all dressed up and drove to attend a play that she really wanted to see. The problem was, we showed up a day late. I felt horrible. Yes, mommy guilt was cursing through my veins. My daughter was sad. Upset. Disappointed. And Angry. And it was all my fault.
We had missed the last show, so there was no buying new tickets. Our chance had come and gone.
Well, I tried to cheer my daughter up. I told her I was sorry. Made a joke about being all dressed up with no where to go. Tried to find the positive. Told her things could be worse. And who knows what else.
But my daughter was still sad. Disappointed. Upset. Angry.
It was one of those times I realized that I could not dance and sing her happy. And it hurt. And it was uncomfortable. Because it was my fault.
And that was alright. Only it didn’t feel alright.
I wanted her to get over her emotions right away, but she couldn’t.
We went out to donuts, I think, but donuts just don’t compare to a Broadway play.
It is hard as parents seeing our children trying to work through their emotions. It is hard as spouses when we see our mates working through difficult time. It is hard when we see our friends grappling with big changes and emotions. It is hard when we can’t solve things. Make things better. Wave a magic wand.
We can watch them wade through the emotions, but we can’t do it for them.
I know sometimes their emotions make me uncomfortable, and so I want to fix them. But only they can fix them.
Or maybe I feel responsible for their emotions, like I did with my daughter and missing the play, so I want to fix them.
But I can’t fix them. And that is hard. But it is alright.
What you can do to help the other person deal with their emotions?
I am leaning that sometimes the best thing to do is just be there. Be available for the person.
Let them sit and process their emotions, and not try and hurry them to happy.
Instead of talking, listen to them. Then asking a few questions that lets them tell you where they are coming from. And why. Then listening some more.
This technique requires us to let them come to some of their own conclusions. To bite back some of our wonderful insights and conclusions. To not do most of the talking and telling.
But it works.
They process through their emotions and return to their usual self easier if they can talk about how they are feeling, and why they feel that way.
Isn’t this what we all want? To be understood and heard?
This may mean letting them be sad for a while. Not hurrying or short changing the grieving process. Or the healing process.
It’s hard, because we often want to fix them on our terms and time.
But that will not work for them.
Resisting the urge to fix.
Let’s stop feeling responsible for fixing everyone’s attitude or emotions.
Because we are not responsible for fixing them.
Instead, let’s help them process their emotions. Listen. Ask questions. And listen some more.
We won’t do it perfectly.
And it will feel strange. All new things do. But as we try, we will be learning. And progress will be made.
Both for them. And for us.
Thanks for stopping by. Keep remembering what’s important.
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